Why I Got Rid of Social Media (at least temporarily)

Overwhelmed. That is the way I have been feeling on a regular basis lately. It's a combination of a few things: working mother who is still ebf, my hubby's arm has been in a sling for two months, coldest winter of my lifetime, and my own expectations on myself. Oh sometimes it may be due to our little doll baby still waking up once a night to eat...and sometimes more wake ups just to be comforted.

There have been many, many tears shed! And no, I'm not exagerating. So we knew I needed to evaluate if there was anything I could do in the time being to make it better. Some things are out of my control, but many things are not. I have a hard time when the house isn't clean, at least picked up. It isn't something I want to just "let go." So, I need to be better about telling Ryan when and how he can help me instead of just trying to do it all on my own. 

This leads me to social media. Here is why I am tamping back on usage:

1. Time suck - I felt like I was wasting time on there because it is just a few swipes on my iphone. With working a part time job and having a 6 month old, who has time for something that takes away time and energy?

2. Pressure to be perfect - I also found that it was making me feel pressure to be a certain kind of mom at times. We all know that people put their best foot forward on Facebook usually. Why would we want to discuss the things we don't like about our life or the things that aren't going well? Most people don't which is understandable. 

3. Pressure to be the "best, craftiest" mom - Same story with Pinterest. I love that website, but I felt like if I didn't do a lot of those craft pins for kids, that they might end up feeling deprived. Ha! I'm pretty sure they will be ok :-). And who wants to run to three different stores with a little on their day off to get home and realize you forgot the one thing that actually pulls the project together?!

4. Doing it "all" - this one really gets to me. I always think I can juggle it all. Before having Reese, I did juggle it all. I might not have made time for myself or always did everything I wanted but I made sure everyone else was happy. This is just not possible with kids, unless you want to have a mental breakdown every few months...or days like I was. Perfection and drive are sometimes hard to reign in, especially when you are an ultimate type A personality. You may think people expect you to be this way because you have always been this way, but for the most part your loved ones and friends want you to be happy. That often means making yourself happy and not others necessarily. 

I'll let you how it goes and if I can hold off on anything more than limited usage of social media for awhile. This may be hard because myself, Reese and my mom are headed to Anaheim next weekend!!

On our walk yesterday in the unusually high 50s weather in February that we had for two days!

Sleeping on the way home from her great grandparents house.

Car selfie!